I breath the air
I embrace the wind
I feel the happiness
I live the life
I look at the world as an arbitrager.
Follow the trends, learn the rules and then play the strategies. There are two types arbitragers in my eyes: short-horizon profit-maximizing entrepreneurs and long-run welfare-maximizing charities. The word "arbitrager" is neutral in my dictionary.
Rational arbitragers can be defined based on their valuations to the time, the life, and the world. It's difficult to make the simple judgement of whether one single behavior is raional or not. Learn the circumstances, the relative comparisons and the ultimate goal of one action. Look forward, forward and forward.
The variety of rationalities definitions shows complexities of life.
Why to learn the behaviors? To learn better about the thinking pattern and help the evolution in a way we thought better so far. Who you are determines what you do and how you do. The uniqueness of behaviors...
(to be coninued)
I believe in love and have faith of its great power in changing life. Life is so short that I try every efforts to love, by all means do good, help whenever I can and make my tiny contribution to the evolvement of the world.
I believe everyone has a choice of life while I choose to follow my heart. I would not choose "An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth". I would admit I know nothing and keep wondering with curiosity.
It's wonderful to walk slowly towards dreams. I understand it's hard to control the outside but I need to be strong myself. All the sufferings have ending time. Past is past. Time to focus on today and dream about tomorrow.
Hope a happy ending :)
Be honest. Never lie.
Time is an interesting thing. It has been three years since I came to us. I cherish every moment and appreciate each person in my life. I think I like to stay with the times and keep up with time.
Laziness is a bad thing and not an excuse to escape responsibilities and obtain self entertainment. Be hard in life. There is no easy quick way for creative beautiful work. Smartness is not always efficient. Efficiency is not always optimal. Balance to reach optimal status. Never be too lazy to give a try.
Learning is a tough process but I never give up a single try. I like to learn things and am always curious about life. I will keep this passion and stick to my principles. No matter how the future is waiting for me, I will face with courage and a humble heart.
It's time to see what I can do
I said the only thing I could control is myself.
I accepted my imperfectness and always looked things from the bright side.
I preferred to leave some space to everyone rather than pushing towards one narrow direction.
It's been a tough period for me. To make up minds and keep promises is not easy. I carry on more responsibilities and feel more stressful to continue (but I will move forward without hesitation). I am Preparing to enter into another level and handle the transfer fearlessly.
Am I ready? Well, let it go!
Accumulate energy and courage to do the right good thing. Be prepared ahead of time. Keep in the proper pace and comfortable distance. Step to the outside with grateful thoughts and kind manners. Less worries, more patience. Be clear at the very beginning and face the facts rationally. Calm and no hurry in making decisions.
Be pure and simple as always. Piano and cello are the instruments I like most. Let it go! Music is powerful!
1. talk freely with my families and share undefended with who I love and loves me;
2. figure out a problem that confuses me for a long time and understand something clearer than before;
3. realize small dreams step by step slowly after long process of worrying and efforts;
4. stay in my warm bed inside my warm quilt when outside is raining heavily;
5. a cup of warm water when I'm sick in bed thirsty;
[10/02/2013 ...(list 20 things and forget save by mistake after shower)
Never mind. They are already in my heart and I will enrich them Gradually.
I will be back to my motherland together with my patents in 99 days.]
I thought people should be nice in general.
I thought history rehearsal repeatedly.
I thought there exists freedom.
I thought the good lasts.
Am I wrong? I'm speechless...
I don't expect things last forever any more.
I don't expect there is absolute pure freedom at all.
I don't expect the same history happens again without any oscillation.
I don't expect people are the same nice as what they are treated...
I still think there are more nice, polite, respectful people in the world.
I still think history tells most of the stories in similar but not exact ways.
I still think freedom can be realized with efforts in some sort of conceptual dreamland.
I still think doing good is powerful enough so that such positive energy can be passed on generation after generation.
I will never choose to be rude and harsh to others.
I will never choose to forget the lessons history and memory try to tell me.
I will never choose to lose my direction on my persuit of freedom and dreams.
I will never choose to do bad even though I was being treated unfriendly or being hurt badly.
I would stay away from those who were not nice.
I would stick to my thoughts of life.
I would learn from history.
I would try best be nice.
I don't like lies but I will learn to be trustable.
I don't like disappointment but I will learn to forgive.
I don't like toying but I will learn to be serious with my fun.
I don't like evil but I will learn to deal with badness in my way.
Life is so short that I don't think I have time to bother with these but I do care about welfare. I love what I did and I enjoy every effort I made. I have supports from my loved family and that's enough. I will try my best to make a difference even though it's a tiny small difference. Seriously, I think jokes are funny smart way of expressing research. Those who understands but also good at switching into boring seriousness might succeed in the long run.
(80 days left to be back China)
I will live slowly and smile quietly.
I won't extravagant expect more. I'm always happy with a little tiny progress and satisfied with every lucky moment. I will remember every unforgettable details and keep in mind appreciating life. I know the uneasiness of life but will try my best to be as simple as possible. I see the complicated world but will stay pure in my heart. I hear different voices but will keep my own belief and values.
Time is magic. I used to grasp every precious minute by rushing into what I thought was the most important to myself. I was like racing with time in a game that I would never win. I start to realize how slow and stupid I was by missing the best moment of life. Now I choose to live slow. The magic of time is when you live slowly, he is actually the best friend rather than the running competitor or even enemy. You will find he is even more patient and would like to enjoy every second slowly with you. Slowly I find time is unlimited, generous and polite as a gentleman. He is around me all the time, quietly watching me grow like a tree, listening to the happy hours I spend with my friends, teaching me to wait for happiness. Slowly I do things even faster. Slowly I live even happier. Slowly I love to be slow.
Emotion is elusive. I'm never short of emotions. I won't evaluate emotions as a measure of costs or benefits. I know I can't control even my own emotions and they sometimes hurt me badly. But I will never shut it down. I'm not a bloody vampire. I'm just a normal girl with a little child living in my atrial. It's easy and simple to make me laugh, smile, cry, moving,missing, surprised, excited, frightened, amazed, nervous, afraid, hurt, happy... I believe the world is in general beautiful but I protect myself by carefully smiling quietly.
Things are beautiful not just because of ideality but also imperfection. Life is not a either-winner-or-loser game. Its beauty lies in the miracle of balance. Winner is shining his beauty by the sacrifice of loser. Sacrifice is not just a word but a spirit of maximizing the beauty of the world. Nature has its own beautiful rule. The sea can be the sea because she is deep enough to handle waves. The sky can be the sky because he is open to tolerate changes and face the universe. The tree can be the tree because she roots down to the earth and provides shades without asking. The eagle can be the eagle because he spread his wings to embrace the sky...
Dreams can take me to Crystal's wonderland. I dream a lot no matter big or small, good or bad, real or virtual. When it's hard to tell whether I'm dreaming or living, I'm close to realize my dream. It's always hard to act as "I don't care" but when I really focus on the procedure, results are natural. I will never pretend to not care for things I highly value. I will take care of what I care. I will try my best to know what I truly care and won't hesitate to show my concern in my way.
Smile quietly even after heart breaks because smile and time are the most effective cure. Not afraid of heart broken because it makes heart even stronger after recovery. Slowly it will recover and fade away from memory. Looking back at the sad moments gives lessons or even jokes. Let it go...
Yes, I will live slowly and smile qui
It's my 19th birthday. I did realize how happy I was at that time but now when I heard Mom sing the happy birthday song to me today through Internet, I suddenly feel I was the happiest one in the world at that moment. I think happiness has little to do with money but true love is the essential root of happiness.
That was a hot summer day as usual in Beijing. Dad planned to go to the PANJIAYUAN flea market and asked me to come as a help hand. I agreed and thought it would be an unforgettable experience, and in deed, it was. Dad carried a few of his collections and we were heading there very early in the morning. It was my first time to put the stall on the street. Actually I can't remember what I helped but I think that morning time flied very quickly. I remember he sold or exchanged something that day. Dad showed me around and looked at different kinds of art. I stopped at a secondhand book stall and found a book on financial economics of China written in English. Dad bought it for me in only 5 yuan and I was so happy like finding the most precious treasure in the world. The market ended around noon and we packed up back home.
We were back around 2 pm and Mom was waiting at home with a big surprise. Yes, I didn't expect a big birthday cake and I told them I don't like the cream over the cake, which is too sweet for me. However, mom insisted on buying one for me even she didn't eat it. She rode the bike a long way to go to the bakery store and carried all by herself in that old bike same age as her in such a hot summer day noon. There is a wilderness on her way and she picked up some wildflowers for me. The cake is in heart shape and has my name on it. She also prepared my favorite dishes for me.
When we were back, mom asked dad and I dressed well to take photos everywhere in our sweet home. Dad and I was joking that we just got tanned to look like coming back from the beach. We spent the afternoon enjoying the food and chatting about our dreams in the coach. We talked about our wishes and played cards together. They gave me a ring with 2000 on it as my birthday gift and I kept wearing it for a long time. I always feel a little bit down on my birthdays but now I like to grow up so that I can carry on that responsibility to give my parents a better life I want. It's hard for me to find how lucky I am when they are around. But at that moment, I think, I'm from the richest and happiest family.
I believe that kind of love is deep in my blood. I feel that comfortable and relaxed with them, without the need of breaking the quietness. I just miss them so badly that I never said a word of missing them. I will try my best to love back in my way and reunion soon. They makes me enjoy life, though I prefer to be independent now. That's family who will always support each other and tolerate each other though complaints and arguments happen all the time. That's my favorite birthday and it reminds me to cherish the life I live every day.