I will live slowly and smile quietly.
I won't extravagant expect more. I'm always happy with a little tiny progress and satisfied with every lucky moment. I will remember every unforgettable details and keep in mind appreciating life. I know the uneasiness of life but will try my best to be as simple as possible. I see the complicated world but will stay pure in my heart. I hear different voices but will keep my own belief and values.
Time is magic. I used to grasp every precious minute by rushing into what I thought was the most important to myself. I was like racing with time in a game that I would never win. I start to realize how slow and stupid I was by missing the best moment of life. Now I choose to live slow. The magic of time is when you live slowly, he is actually the best friend rather than the running competitor or even enemy. You will find he is even more patient and would like to enjoy every second slowly with you. Slowly I find time is unlimited, generous and polite as a gentleman. He is around me all the time, quietly watching me grow like a tree, listening to the happy hours I spend with my friends, teaching me to wait for happiness. Slowly I do things even faster. Slowly I live even happier. Slowly I love to be slow.
Emotion is elusive. I'm never short of emotions. I won't evaluate emotions as a measure of costs or benefits. I know I can't control even my own emotions and they sometimes hurt me badly. But I will never shut it down. I'm not a bloody vampire. I'm just a normal girl with a little child living in my atrial. It's easy and simple to make me laugh, smile, cry, moving,missing, surprised, excited, frightened, amazed, nervous, afraid, hurt, happy... I believe the world is in general beautiful but I protect myself by carefully smiling quietly.
Things are beautiful not just because of ideality but also imperfection. Life is not a either-winner-or-loser game. Its beauty lies in the miracle of balance. Winner is shining his beauty by the sacrifice of loser. Sacrifice is not just a word but a spirit of maximizing the beauty of the world. Nature has its own beautiful rule. The sea can be the sea because she is deep enough to handle waves. The sky can be the sky because he is open to tolerate changes and face the universe. The tree can be the tree because she roots down to the earth and provides shades without asking. The eagle can be the eagle because he spread his wings to embrace the sky...
Dreams can take me to Crystal's wonderland. I dream a lot no matter big or small, good or bad, real or virtual. When it's hard to tell whether I'm dreaming or living, I'm close to realize my dream. It's always hard to act as "I don't care" but when I really focus on the procedure, results are natural. I will never pretend to not care for things I highly value. I will take care of what I care. I will try my best to know what I truly care and won't hesitate to show my concern in my way.
Smile quietly even after heart breaks because smile and time are the most effective cure. Not afraid of heart broken because it makes heart even stronger after recovery. Slowly it will recover and fade away from memory. Looking back at the sad moments gives lessons or even jokes. Let it go...
Yes, I will live slowly and smile qui